Colonoscopy and the Fear that Everyone Wants to Hurt Me

So, I have avoided submitting to the dreaded colonoscopy well beyond the recommended age that the screening is supposed to take place. For my international readers, all Americans are encouraged to be screened for colon cancer when they are 50. My husband went under the gun; I mean invited this home invasion; I mean was screened against his will and at the insistence of his doctor some years back. I am happy to report that he survived the procedure and entertained his caregivers with an overflow of hilariously unrestrained friendliness while recovering from the anesthesia.

On the other hand, I have strenuously resisted all attempts to convince me that such a screen was in my best interest. Have you noticed that telling God no is a surefire way to activate his “Oh yes you will?” Back in the day—waaay back, I am happy to report—I told God that I would never quit smoking pot; that he was wasting his time even going there.

Pot smoking was the first of my heathen bad habits to go away. It went so far away that even the thought of being in the same room with pot gives me the willies. Email me if you want the details.

Yes! God can change a mind. After telling the Lord “no thank you” to a colonoscopy; that I would take my chances with colon cancer, every single commercial on TV was about screening for colon cancer. Every Single One. Friends began sharing colon cancer stories. Colon cancer stories popped up on my FB news feed. One friend, whose mother had just been diagnosed via a colonoscopy, asked why on earth was I not getting a screening? To which I had to respond that I was scared out of my wits! I asked for prayer.

Here is what the Lord showed me. My heart believed beyond a doubt that Everyone Wants to Hurt Me. Are you aware that your heart is designed to believe absolutely without question? Once your heart settles into a belief, it is there for good unless some intervention takes place.

Blessed be the name of our God, I know how to intervene. I broke all vows to Never Forget that Everyone Wants to Hurt Me. I sent all attached evil spirits to the feet of Jesus to be judged there. And I firmly instructed my heart to stop believing what it believed. Instead, I directed it to believe this: All bad things happen because of the fall, not because everyone wants to hurt me. I then directed my heart to believe that No One Wants to Hurt Me (realizing the devil does but so what to him). A few days later, I made a doctor’s appointment and will be scheduling my lovely home invasion screen soon.

I feel no fear AT ALL.

I don’t think all of us have my heart belief, but I think many of us do. So, let’s pray together and break it.

-In Jesus’ name, I break the inner vow I took to Never Forget that Everyone Wants to Hurt Me. I break the assignments of any evil spirit attached to that vow. I send all evil spirits to the feet of Jesus to be judged.

-Heart, from now on you will stop believing that everyone wants to hurt me. Instead you will root and ground me in the grace and love of God.

-Lord, God, please heal all the hurts that have resulted because I believed in my heart that everyone wants to hurt me. Amen.

The above prayer may surface some hurts that need addressing in the presence of the Lord. I pray for you that you will be saturated in his love as you work through painful heart beliefs.

… it is good for the heart to be strengthened by grace … Hebrews 13:9

I may—or may not—report on how the colonoscopy goes 🙂

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Susan
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A Quick Helpful Prayer Strategy

Good news! I have finished my book (Yay!) and I will be meeting with book agents June 7 and 8. Prayer that the Lord’s will be done is very appreciated.

Prayer Strategy: Cutting Free from the Future

The need to not only heal, but to cut free from the past is recognized among prayer ministers pretty much across the board. But there is also a need to cut free from ties to the future.

These ties can be a prophetic word that you are waiting to come true. Prophetic words about the future can keep you from living today. AND they can cause you to feel distress when your present life doesn’t look anything like that word.

Fear of what the future holds or hope in the future (instead of in Christ) can pull you into anxiety. Anything that causes you to live future-focused and not present-focused is a potential weapon in the hands of the evil one.

Now, let me clarify. A wise person plans for the future. But it is not good to anxiously live there. Instead, live your best present because the Lord has your future well in hand.

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11

Prayer for Cutting Free from the Future

In the name of Jesus, by His blood and by His Word, I cut myself free from all ties to the future. My future belongs exclusively to the Lord. He is fully capable of managing it.

Lord God, please bring all of me into the present where I am supposed to live. Please bring to death any habits I have of living in the future. Amen.

Blessings upon you and those you love,

Susan

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What’s in it for the Devil or Don’t Be Dinner!

Written April 2017

Have you ever asked what the devil gets out of torturing people? What is the payoff for that kind of maniacal behavior? If you are like me then you have been offered a number of explanations. I’ve been told that the devil is out for revenge against God; that he is out to hurt God by hurting us; that he is angry because we replaced him as God’s chief worshipper; that he is jealous of us because God loves us so much and, one of my personal favorites, that the devil is just insane. I kind of agree with that last one. BUT I’m not convinced that any of these suggestions is what truly motivates the devil to keep up his relentless attack against humanity.

Now, some of you know me personally, and some of you don’t. For those who don’t, I am a prayer minister who has also served as pastor, youth pastor, children’s pastor, and teacher. I’m Elijah House trained and I have studied under Dr. Tom Hawkins (Restoration in Christ Ministries), Dr. Jim Wilder (Shepherd’s House), Dr. Karl Lehman (Immanuel Approach), Dr. Charles Kraft (Hearts Set Free), Chris and Jen Coursey (Thrive Today), Dr. Mark Virkler (Communion with God Ministries) as well as others. I have been praying with people for many years. In that effort, I have seen patterns consistently emerge that expose what I believe to be the real motive behind demonic attacks.

Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. 1 Peter 5:8

Someone (I’m sorry to say I don’t know who it is) described how lions capture and devour their prey: “A pride of lions will stalk and attack animals that are larger than they are — including wildebeest and water buffalo weighing thousands of pounds. When lions attack, they do so through multiple attacks from every side. Eventually, one lion gets a grip on the throat of the water buffalo and kills it by strangulation. It is a slow and painful death. The water buffalo goes down, and the lions begin eating it before it is dead.”

Doesn’t this description accurately picture what it feels like when we are under spiritual attack? Our peace and rest, confidence and contentment is hunted down from every direction and gnawed off our bones while we yet live! Our spiritual enemy doesn’t eat flesh like we chow down on a steak or like the lions consume a water buffalo. So, what exactly is our enemy consuming?

Look at John 10:10. Jesus describes our enemy as a thief who comes to steal, kill and destroy. What does the devil steal? He can’t wear our clothes, drive our cars, spend our wealth. What do we have that he wants – or perhaps – needs?

If you look at Genesis, chapter 3, which chronicles the fall of man, you will see that the devil sought out Eve and directed her to consider the forbidden tree as a source of food. As you know, she ate and so did her husband. Now look at verse 14: (Please read the verses; don’t skip over!)

The Lord God said to the serpent, “Because you have done this, cursed are you more than all cattle, and more than every beast of the field; on your belly you will go, and dust you will eat …

Look at Genesis 2:7:

Then the Lord God formed man of dust from the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living being.

And Genesis 3:18-19:

By the sweat of your face you will eat bread, till you return to the ground, because from it you were taken; for you are dust, and to dust you shall return.

And one more, Psalm 103:14, then we will talk.

For He Himself knows our frame; He is mindful that we are but dust.

When Adam and Eve fell, it became necessary for them to feed themselves through their own efforts. This is a natural consequence of living outside of God’s design. God is not being mean; it is the result of sin. When Satan fell, it became necessary for him to sustain his own life. What sustains the life of Satan and his horde? Food. Just as food sustains our life. But what kind of food does a fallen spiritual being require?

Let’s look back at Genesis 3. Satan hid himself inside a serpent, slithered into the garden, and suggested to Eve that she needed something else to eat besides the fruit of the gabillion other trees in the garden. Inherent in his temptation was the lie that she needed another source of sustenance other than what God had provided. She didn’t. God had fully provided for her. The being who lacked a food source was Satan.

Satan was desperately seeking a new source of energy, something to sustain him since he was cast down and separated from the life of God. What better option than the newly created image of God? How we must have overflowed with life when we were first created. But Satan is unable to fill himself from the sweet emotional energy that flows from love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. He cannot feed from the harmony that results when we are aligned with God’s design.

But there is another kind of energy we are capable of generating. Nervous, panicky energy that flows from painful emotions such as confusion, hatred, rage, shame, terror, jealousy and despair. Let’s take a break from the biblical for a moment and look at the science behind what I am saying.

According to researchers in the field of neurocardiology, our hearts emit a measurable electromagnetic field that is affected by the emotions we are experiencing. This electromagnetic field is energy that can be measured. When we are upset, our hearts emit dissonant or incoherent energy. Researchers are finding that a coherent or harmonious energy signal can be achieved through gratitude, appreciation and love. In other words, the emotions we experience, our state of inner being, is reflected by the energy our physical hearts produce.

Shortly after I received Christ, I had this experience that highlights what I am explaining.

My mother and I attended the wedding and reception of a high school friend of mine. We had a great time, chatting with the other guests and visiting the champagne fountain. This was my first champagne fountain and I did not know of the power therein. I visited it a few times too many, becoming pretty tipsy without realizing it. We came home, went to bed and I woke up to a vision. It was just like watching a television show. Two men entered the scene; one was very fat, the other extremely thin. Both of them were wearing tuxedos and carrying chairs. They set the chairs opposite each other across from a small table and began to talk. I knew that they had come to feast. Here is some of what they said: “You certainly made a complete fool out of yourself tonight. How embarrassing. You are an embarrassment. I can’t believe you said that! How could you act like that? You’re a disgusting, stupid girl, getting drunk like that. You call yourself a Christian? You’re a laughing stock.”

I writhed in shame while I watched and listened. This kind of self-shaming was not new to me, but I had never before seen what was happening in the spirit realm. I had always thought it was just me hating myself. Then, from off-stage, another voice calmly spoke, saying, “Greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world.” My tormentors stopped talking, looked around, and then resumed their accusations. Again, the voice spoke, calmly and firmly, quoting 1 John 4:4 over and over, “Greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world.” The two evil beings grew obviously more uncomfortable and agitated until they stood, snatched up their chairs and left! The tormenting thoughts instantly stopped.

These beings had come to feast upon the energy generated by my painful emotions. I am convinced that the enemy of humanity keeps our world in a state of angry, fearful chaos because humans in emotional turmoil supply him and his horde with the energy they need to sustain themselves. Once we are removed as an energy source, he will be reduced to the following: Those who see you will gaze at you, they will ponder over you, saying, ‘Is this the man who made the earth tremble, who shook kingdoms, who made the world like a wilderness and overthrew its cities, who did not allow his prisoners to go home?’ Isaiah 14:16-17

While we wait for the return of our Lord, let us learn how to address our wrong heart beliefs that have wounded us so deeply and produce so much painful emotional energy. Let’s us learn how to NOT be dinner.

I invite you to visit thepoolministries.org where you will find tested and effective tools and strategies for inner healing and deliverance. Stay tuned for Part Two.

Blessings and Smiles,
Susan

What’s Behind These Gender Issues? (Part 3)

Written August 2017

Looking for Causes and Cures

Part Three of this series exposes the hidden beliefs empowering the spirit of misogyny and misandry.

What is at the Root of Today’s Gender Issues?

When I was a college student a certain number of science courses were mandatory in order for me to graduate even though I was a liberal arts major. So I was required to study evolution and write an essay about that supposed process in order to pass. I recall ending my essay with this comment: “It all began in a Garden.” That Garden is where we will start the third and final part of Gender Issues.

First, I want to take a quick look at a concept explored much more fully by John Sandford in his outstanding book The Renewal of the Mind. We all are aware that we inherit a natural gene set from our parents. We also inherit a spiritual gene set. This spiritual inheritance includes a fallen way of thinking that resulted when Adam and Eve sinned in the Garden. John Sandford states it this way, “Root systems inherited from Adam and Eve are common to all; no one has escaped having them.”

We can see this principle revealed in Romans 5 which explains that through Adam (one man) ALL were made sinners. Since we are all descendants of Adam and Eve, we all have inherited from our ancient parents certain automatic ways of thinking about gender. Don’t despair! There are ways to overcome these ingrained mental thought patterns because “through the obedience of the One (Jesus) the many will be made righteous.” I will discuss those tools later in the article.

Blame Shifting
Let’s visit what happened in the Garden after Adam and Eve fell for the devil’s scam. When the Lord asked Adam if he had eaten from the forbidden tree, Adam replied, “The woman whom You gave to be with me, she gave me from the tree, and I ate” (Genesis 3:12). Adam blamed Eve for his very own, could-have-chosen differently, choice to eat. He blamed her AND he blamed God.

This very first blame shifting resulted in a mental groove that all of humanity runs along. We automatically shy away from taking responsibility for our own actions, instead we find someone or something to blame for our bad choices. We don’t even have to think about it! It’s automatic.

How does this affect our relationship with the opposite gender? We blame the man or we blame the woman. If he or she would just change then we would be happy and successful! Do you see how this way of thinking causes us to believe that the man or the woman possesses a dangerous power to affect our lives for good or ill?

Let’s stop and pray: Father God, Creator of Heaven and Earth, I repent for myself and for my ancestors for accepting the lie that You have given the opposite gender the power to ruin my life. My life is hidden in You. Forgive me and forgive my people for blaming You and for blaming him or her for the choices I have made. Bring this inherited mental groove of ducking responsibility and blame shifting to death within me. Build into me the mind of Christ. In His name I pray.

Control and Debt Paying
Historically, Adam’s response to believing that the woman ruined everything is to control and subjugate her. This behavior is rooted in fear of what the woman will do if she is left to her own devices. Let’s recall that Satan himself launched an intentional psychological attack against Eve. She didn’t come up with disobeying God on her own. Not only did she have help from a malevolent source, she had never encountered evil intentions before. What woman or man could have stood against the evil one under those same circumstances? I believe the world-wide subjugation of women (and women’s agreement with being subjugated) stems from our inherited ingrained belief that women are not to be trusted because they are dangerous and, thus, must be controlled. God stated it this way in Genesis 3:16: “He (the man) will rule over you.”

Women are inclined to agree that they need, or deserve, to be subjugated since they, too, have inherited the belief that they have ruined everything. Women tend toward believing within themselves that they owe men a debt that can never be paid. I was an amazing sprinter when I was a girl, so much so that a coach at my high school arranged to have me race his best runner. The entire school immediately split into two factions: the girls against the boys with me at the center! What I couldn’t tell my friends was that I was deeply conflicted about the possibility of winning the race. I automatically believed that beating the boy was wrong. I hoped that he was faster than me, but he wasn’t and, as I raced ahead realizing that I could win if I tried, I slowed down and let him win.

Let’s stop and pray: Father God, Creator of Heaven and Earth, I repent for myself and for my ancestors for accepting the lie that women must be subjugated and controlled. That it is not safe to allow them to develop and excel. Forgive us for allowing fear to rule our perceptions of women.

For women to pray: Forgive me and my people for accepting blame wrongly and trying to pay debts that Your beautiful Son paid for us on the cross. I chose to allow Jesus to pay all debts owed by me and my people. He will restore anything we have broken.

For all to pray: Bring this inherited mental groove of accepting that women have committed a sin that cannot be forgiven and owe a debt that cannot be paid to death within me. Build into me the mind of Christ. In His name I pray.

Wrong Priorities and Deafness

“Then to Adam He said, “Because you have listened to the voice of your wife, and have eaten from the tree about which I commanded you, saying, ‘You shall not eat from it …’” Genesis 3:17

I realize that many people use the scripture above to justify marginalizing the input of women, but let me suggest that God was NOT talking about gender issues. He was pointing out that because Adam valued his horizontal relationship with Eve above his vertical relationship with God, lots of bad things had been loosed into the world. It was a priority issue; not a gender issue. One mental groove we have inherited from Adam’s choice is that we value our human relationships inappropriately. We continue to ignore God’s commands when it comes to our relationships, sleeping with each other before marriage and placing the other person’s happiness above pleasing the Lord.

Another expression of this twisting of perception between the genders is the deification of men by women. Women are born turned toward men, longing to be satisfied and fulfilled by men in ways only God can supply. Men, of course, fail at being God which results in generations of deeply disappointed women. God warned us when He said to Eve:
“your desire will be for your husband, and he will rule over you.” Genesis 3:16

Even though God was NOT talking about gender when He said “because you have listened to the voice of your wife,” we inherit the belief that it is not safe to listen to women. How many women can attest to the fact that men are born with an internal off switch that activates whenever their women offer advice, input or simply want to engage in meaningful conversation? Because Adam blamed Eve, he turned away from receiving advice from her even though she was designed by God to help him. There is no disgrace in being a helper. The Holy Spirit is sent to us as a helper.

But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all that I said to you. John 14:26

But because of choices made by our ancient parents, we automatically scorn and fear the help of women and the role of helper is looked down upon with great contempt.

Let’s stop and pray: Dearest Father God, we come before the throne of grace in our time of need, admitting that we have inherited mental grooves along which our minds automatically run. Because of this, we have placed our human relationships above our relationship with You. We have ignored Your commands in order to pursue human companionship at the expense of Your design. Forgive us, Lord. Give us mercy.

To be prayed by men: Lord, we have deafened our ears to the advice and input of women who You specially designed to come alongside to help us. Being a helper does not make women less than us. It is an honorable task not an identity. Holy Spirit is not ashamed to be called our Helper. Forgive us for making women feel ashamed of that role. Forgive us, Lord. Teach us to honor the Godly role of women in our lives. Teach us to receive from them appropriately, while not setting them above You.

Forgive me and my people for deifying men in positions of authority, looking to a leader to provide and protect; to supply legitimacy and identity, instead of seeking those things from You. Forgive us for accepting the lie that we (men) must fill Your shoes, striving for that, then condemning ourselves and other men when we failed. Forgive me and my people for judging men who have failed to live up to our expectations. Teach us to understand and honor our design as men according to Your truth.

To be prayed by women: Father God, forgive us for deifying our men, demanding that they be You, always wise and strong, able to fulfill all our needs, then becoming bitterly disappointed when they have failed. Forgive us, Lord. Teach us to honor our men appropriately, not setting them in Your place.

Forgive us for being ashamed of our role as helper, believing that being called alongside to help makes women less than men. Forgive me and my people for holding ourselves in contempt or using our gender as an excuse to set ungodly limits for ourselves. Forgive us for rejecting or devaluing our insights and advice. Teach us to understand and honor our gender according to the truth embodied in Your design.

To be prayed by all: Bring these inherited mental grooves to death within us and build into us the mind of Christ. In His name we pray.

The Tools
Since none of us escape inheriting these fallen ways of thinking about gender, what can we do to change the way we think? First, be aware that you are predisposed to think in wrong ways. Pray the prayers in this article, or your own version, whenever you catch yourself falling back into the habitual ways of thinking. We were created to love and appreciate each other; not fight and hate. Our warfare isn’t against the man or the woman. What John Sandford calls “flash prayers” should be prayed throughout your day, short prayers asking the Lord to bring your carnal thinking to death, asking Him to build new ways of thinking into you; to activate the mind of Christ within you.

Inner healing that addresses the deep beliefs within your heart must be addressed so that you can sustain healthy and righteous ways of thinking. If you fail to address what you REALLY believe deep down inside of you, then you will fail to sustain righteous thinking. The enemy has too many buttons to push.

Ask the Lord this: What do I really believe about men/women? Then be quiet and listen. Repent as necessary. Break vows to accept that men are bad or women are bad.

When you fail to react from the mind of Christ, simply repent and go on with building a habit of flash prayers and inner healing.

Many blessings to you, my friends. Please share this article with your friends and loved ones. I am looking forward to having our new website up within the next few months.

I’ll be teaching on the heart at First Wesleyan Church in Tuscaloosa. Classes start September 7th at 6:30 pm. Everyone is welcome!

Smiles!
Susan

Susan Bowman

What’s Behind These Gender Issues? (Part 2)

Written August 2017

Looking for Causes and Cures

When Men Are Hated

In Part One of this series, I raised the possibility that the confusion surrounding gender might be growing out of wide-spread exasperation with the ongoing bitter hostility between men and women. If society regards gender as fluid; if it doesn’t matter, then perhaps some of the pain surrounding divorce and parental abandonment will be contained.

How does this ancient warfare between the genders express itself? The fruit is pretty obvious: the marginalization of women and the deification of men. We looked at the marginalization of women in Part One. We will look at the deification of men in Part Two. In Part Three, I will tackle the root issues which are producing all this rotten fruit.

Deification is when a person is treated like a god. Do we deify our men? Do we require them to be godlike? I think we do. I think we inherit a fallen mindset that causes us to automatically place men on a throne reserved for God. Men, obviously, are not equipped to be God. But because the world unthinkingly expects a godlike performance from them, men suffer from a deep sense of inadequacy which, if you think about it, makes sense. In their inner most being, men know they are going to fail at being God.

How men handle this deification varies. Some are hard, cold and angry. Others withdraw. Some cycle in and out of depression as they struggle to be good men only to fail again and again. Others give up or act out. The wrong responses to this sin just grows the wide-spread belief that all men are dangerous, morally weak and not to be trusted.

Unlike misogyny, which is the institutionalized acceptance that it is socially and culturally right to marginalize women, misandry – the hatred of men – is a grassroots and underground movement. Misandry spreads throughout the female population as women agree to fear, hate and despise those seen as the oppressor. Encoded with a fallen image of what a man should be, children grow to fear, hate and despise their fathers for real and perceived failures.

Because all of us are born with a corrupted mind, we all view gender through a filter that the enemy is able to manipulate. When we do nothing to actively bring our fallen mindset to the Lord for freedom, we are easily manipulated by a spirit of misandry and misogyny. We become like the people described in Ephesians 4:17-19: So this I say, and affirm together with the Lord, that you walk no longer just as the Gentiles also walk, in the futility of their mind, being darkened in their understanding, excluded from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them, because of the hardness of their heart; and they, having become callous, have given themselves over to sensuality for the practice of every kind of impurity with greediness.

The Feminist Movement
When a people group sees itself as the powerless victim of an unjust power structure, it will band together to pool resources and gain power. I don’t think such banding together is evil. I think it is a response to stripping human beings of their legitimacy, making them feel powerless because of some unchangeable aspect of their God-given design. The group usually begins asking for basic human rights peacefully through demonstration and education, but historically such movements devolve into bitterness and militancy. The enemy is involved, of course, but inherited mental strongholds cannot be overcome by human reason or, for that matter, by militancy. Our corrupted minds must be renewed, our fallen thinking brought to death by the Spirit of the Lord. Let’s begin working on that with the following renunciations.

How to Begin the Renunciation Process
Therefore, let us draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need. Hebrews 4:16

Hebrews 4:16 invites us to bring our needs into the presence of God. Since the invitation is clear, it is into this heavenly place that I bring generationally empowered sin, bondages and the “things I don’t know” (mysteries) in order to get help. So let us approach the throne of grace in this way.

Pray this: Eternal Father, Creator of all, I accept your invitation to approach the throne of grace in order to receive deliverance for myself and for my ancestral generational line (tribe) from a spirit of misandry. I approach confidently because Your Son has given His life for me. I approach as a representative of my tribe, seeking the freedom and restoration purchased for us by Jesus Christ through His death and resurrection.

It was for freedom that Christ set us free; therefore, keep standing firm and do not be subject again to a yoke of slavery. Galatians 5:1

When Men Are Hated (Deliverance from a Spirit of Misandry)
Everyone before the throne of grace? Ok. Begin like this: Heavenly Father, on behalf of myself and my generational line, I stand before Your throne as a representative of my tribe to renounce, reject and repent …

 For deifying men; for placing them on the throne of our hearts; family; church; community; government or any other throne reserved for God alone.
 For worshipping men
 For expecting men to be God
 For stripping them of their God given-design and replacing it with a fallen carnal design
 For creating a carnal design and worldly place within which all men must fit regardless of their individual gifts and purpose
 For placing man on a pedestal, expecting him to always be emotionally and physically strong, rich, successful, emotionless yet sensitive, affectionate, but not needing affection himself; supportive but able to stand alone. Then despising him when he fails
 For denying men the right to the full range of human emotions
 For valuing men based upon their physical appearance, strength, intelligence and success as measured by worldly standards
 For holding in contempt those men who do not meet worldly standards of manhood
 For the portrayal of men, especially fathers, by the entertainment industry as clueless, weak fools
 For agreeing that men are disposable and expendable in war or in dangerous occupations
 For reducing men to provider only or using them for personal gain of any kind including enhanced status, financial safety and emotional security
 For promoting a double-standard that excuses immoral behavior on the basis of the belief that men just act that way and cannot control themselves.
 For promoting the belief that men are inherently immoral, weak and inferior
 For accepting that all men are stupid and failures
 For believing the lie that all men are selfish, dangerous, violent, untrustworthy and controlling. For believing the lie that all men are rapists and murderers
 For believing the lie that men must be controlled and manipulated. For controlling, nagging and manipulating men. For using sex to manipulate, punish and control men
 For nurturing and cherishing contempt, resentment, superiority, hatred, anger, bitterness and disappointment against the man
 For acts of passive-aggressive vengeance
 For abusing men (fathers, husbands, boyfriends, sons) emotionally, verbally and physically. For withdrawing and withholding affection and communication in order to punish or control
 For making the man the villain and the enemy. For demonizing men and promoting an anti-male attitude
 For blaming the man (Adam) for all the world’s troubles.
 For empowering the Spirit of Misandry in any way by hating men.

In the name of Jesus of Nazareth, I bring to the cross every debt owed to me and to my generational line by anyone who has hurt us by agreeing with and acting in partnership with a spirit of misandry. I ask that the Lord Jesus repay what is owed to us. I also bring all debts we owe to those we have hurt by agreeing with and acting in partnership with a spirit of misandry. I ask, Lord, that You would pay the debts we owe, restoring all that has been damaged or lost because of our sin.

Father God, Creator of Heaven and Earth, as you cleanse my generational line and as you cleanse me, I ask you to bless men with the confidence to walk bravely in their calling, looking only to You for their legitimacy, validation and identity.

To be prayed by men: I bring every curse, judgment, criticism, condemnation and accusation I have ever spoken over myself and over other men to Jesus to be replaced with His blessings. I repent for any rage, resentment and disappointment directed at my Creator for making me a man. I accept my male gender and bless my design.

To be prayed by all: Lord, I ask that every evil spirit involved in destroying the men in my tribe be held accountable by You for what they have done. I ask that these evil beings be judged by You and destroyed for their crimes against humanity. In the name of Jesus, I pray. Amen.

Be looking for Part Three coming your way soon!

Smiles and blessings,

Susan

What’s Behind These Gender Issues (Part One)

Written August 2017

Looking for Causes and Cures

A young friend of mine broached the possibility that the confusion surrounding gender might be growing out of wide-spread exasperation. She wondered if the younger generation is just fed up with the hatred between the genders that has found such devastating expression in a divorce epidemic. Many young people, and not so young, are survivors of divorce or the children of uncommitted parents. Many grew up in a bitter stew of blame and recrimination directed at the father they loved (or wanted to love) and the mother they loved (or wanted to love). Who wants to be a man if the man is bad or a woman if the woman is the cause of our family’s pain? If the man/woman would change or leave then we would be ok! That is the cry of many broken hearts.

Fathers, do not exasperate your children, so that they will not lose heart. Colossians 3:21

This is a sin problem, of course, not a gender issue. Still, with this war between the genders, along with the narrowness and inequality of culturally assigned gender roles, it becomes easy to misdirect our pain and anger so that we blame gender instead of sin. Perhaps this is the thinking behind today’s embrace of “gender fluidity.” If our culture would make biological gender unimportant and insignificant, if we would place gender identity squarely in the hands of the individual, perhaps we can escape or, at least, minimize pain and confusion. Sadly, the outcome of tackling such a problem with human wisdom is more pain and confusion.

Recently, I reached out to another healing ministry – Aslan’s Place – for their advice about a deliverance problem and, in the wondrous way of the Lord, I was not only given the help I asked for, I was also given help that I didn’t realize I needed. Brian Cox, discerning the activity of a misogynistic spirit, directed me to a prayer posted on his website: http://www.aslansplace.com.

This renunciation helps us repent of the abuses against women, both personal and generational, that have resulted in empowering a spirit of misogyny. As I prayed the renunciations, repenting for my ancestors and myself for any abuses committed against women, I began to realize that the prayer was dealing with the fruit (result) of a deeply rooted iniquity. I define iniquity as an intentional twisting and distorting of God’s sovereign design. When we commit iniquity, a root is created from which will grow a fruit-bearing tree. In this case, a certain ancient iniquity has grown hatred between the genders. I believe the original iniquity was woman placing man (the male) on the throne that is reserved for God and man allowing himself to be placed there. (I will look at this more closely in Part Three of this teaching).

Because a man is in no way equipped to be God to a woman, deep and bitter disappointment has resulted from this perversion of God’s design. Humanity’s wholesale rejection of a stable, honorable, God-created gender system, designed to mirror Christ and His bride, is just the most recent fruit borne out of this ancient iniquity.

So let’s get started on cleaning up the sin and iniquity that has come down to us via the belief systems held by our generational line, starting with one kind of fruit being borne by the iniquity: the abuses against women.

In Part Two we will address the hatred of men and in Part Three we will further explore the root iniquity, praying our way through as complete of a renunciation as I can write. John Sandford of Elijah House taught me that no tree is destroyed by picking its fruit. So stay with me please through this three-part discussion until we have dug down to the root iniquity and destroyed the tree at its deepest level.

When Women Are Hated (Deliverance from a Spirit of Misogyny)

Therefore, let us draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need. Hebrews 4:16

Hebrews 4:16 invites us to bring our needs into the presence of God. Since the invitation is clear, it is into this heavenly place that I bring generationally empowered sin, bondages and the “things I don’t know” (mysteries) in order to get help. So let us approach the throne of grace in this way:

Pray this: Eternal Father, Creator of all, I accept your invitation to approach the throne of grace in order to receive deliverance for my ancestral generational line (tribe) and for myself from a spirit of misogyny. I approach confidently because Your Son has given His life for me. I approach as a representative of my tribe, seeking the freedom and restoration purchased for us by Jesus Christ through His death and resurrection.

It was for freedom that Christ set us free; therefore, keep standing firm and do not be subject again to a yoke of slavery. Galatians 5:1

Everyone before the throne of grace? Ok. Begin like this: Heavenly Father, on behalf of myself and my generational line, I stand before Your throne as a representative of my tribe to renounce, reject and repent …

Now please click on the link, pray through the renunciations then return here where I will explain some of the history behind a few of the renunciations and add a few renunciations of my own.

Aslan’s Place Renunciations

Additional Renunciations
 I repent for blaming the woman (Eve) for all of the world’s troubles. I repent for any in my generational line who believed or propagated the lie that Lilith was the first woman, that she was created from the same earth as Adam, that she was a flawed creation and the mother of demons.
 I repent for forcing women into arranged marriages and/or prostitution for the purpose of political gain. I repent for treating women as objects to be used without regard for their personhood.
 I renounce and repent on my behalf and on behalf of all of my generational line for propagating and believing the lie that women do not have souls.
 I repent for believing and propagating the lie that women are inferior to men and exist for the sole purpose of serving men.
 I repent for robbing women of their personhood and silencing their voices.
 I repent for all who have denied or limited access into various professions, declaring that the intellectual labor of a woman is not equal to that of a man and using that as an excuse to withhold equal pay and benefits.
 I repent for the belief that women are supposed to suffer in childbirth.
 For myself and my family line, I repent for all who have participated in obstetrical practices that considered the comfort of the physician more important than the well-being of the mother and/or child. I repent of all medical procedures performed for the convenience of the physician at the expense of the mother and/or child.
 I repent for all those who blamed their wives for the failure to produce male children.
 I repent for all who have twisted the intent of scripture in order to subjugate women within the institutions of marriage, family, church, government, business and community by withholding leadership positions, banishing women to the background, denying their callings, diminishing their gifts and denying the Word of God that declares all people equal in His eyes (Galatians 3:28).

In the name of Jesus of Nazareth, I bring to the cross every debt owed to my generational line and to me by anyone who has hurt us by agreeing with and acting in partnership with a misogynist spirit. I ask that the Lord Jesus repay what is owned to us. restoring what has been damaged or lost. I also bring all debts we owe to those we have hurt by agreeing with and acting in partnership with a misogynist spirit. I ask, Lord, that You would pay the debts we owe, restoring all that has been damaged or lost because of our sin.

Father God, Creator of Heaven and Earth, as you cleanse my generational line and as you cleanse me, I ask you to bless women with the confidence to walk bravely in their calling, looking only to You for validation, legitimacy and identity.

To be prayed by women: I bring every curse, judgment, criticism, accusation and condemnation I have ever spoken over myself and over other women to Jesus to be replaced with His blessings. I repent for any rage, resentment and disappointment directed at my Creator for making me a woman. I accept my female gender and bless my design.

To be prayed by all: Lord, I ask that every evil spirit involved in destroying the women in my tribe be held accountable by You for what they have done. I ask that these evil beings be judged by You and destroyed for their crimes against humanity. In the name of Jesus, I pray. Amen.

Explanations:
Droit du Seigneur: the supposed right claimable by a feudal lord to have sexual relations with the bride of a vassal on her first night of marriage.

Hysterectomies: I have been unable to locate any record of hysterectomies being performed as a cure for mental and emotional distress, (not to say that it hasn’t been done, just that I cannot locate records of it myself). BUT, historically, the medical community has blamed women’s emotional distresses (hysteria) on a “wandering womb.” In other words, the cause of emotional, mental and spiritual pain is because a person is biologically female.

Scopolamine: When combined with morphine, this drug produces a state called “twilight sleep.” The laboring woman feels pain, but doesn’t remember it after the drug wears off. Research reports that Scopolamine creates a psychotic state during which the laboring mother may need to be forcibly restrained while giving birth and may result in a failure to bond with the child.

Be looking for Part Two coming your way soon!

Smiles and blessings,
Susan

The Base Exchange

Written April 2016

Growing up the kid of a military man, my parents often towed me on shopping expeditions to the BX. BX stands for Base Exchange; a sort of drugstore slash convenience store not quite a grocery store place. It was called an Exchange because that’s the place you exchanged your money for their products. And, since it was a military base, you didn’t pay tax and the prices, generally, were less than off-base prices.

Keep that in mind as we go along because the idea of exchange is important.

Sam and I recently slipped away for a little vacation. Something we rarely get to do because our son, for whom we are the only caregivers, (he is intellectually challenged; feel free to pray for him and us) was away with friends. I had the flu, but was determined to go anyway, and Sam caught my flu on the way … in other words it was the Vacation from Hell even without factoring in the feral cats, one of which was in heat, that waged a determined assault on our quaint, in-the-country vacation rental.

So returning home (escaping might be more apropos) I was driving, since I was now the less ill, while Sam read to me from John Eldredge’s book, Moving Mountains. One section really spoke to us which led us to pray the prayer against curses and judgments (See page 182 of John’s book. The entire prayer is posted at ransomedheart.com and I highly recommend you pray the prayer for yourself).

What a difference that prayer made! We had no idea that we were laboring under curses, judgments, accusations, and condemnation coming at us from so many directions! Here are a few that God showed me after we prayed. Curses from a pastor’s wife enraged at me for refusing to teach doctrine that I didn’t agree with; curses from a married couple that coveted my ministry; curses from Satanic cults targeting this ministry. And that’s just the deliberate, malicious cursing! Much more falls under the heading of judgments, accusations and condemnations from random people. For years, Sam and I have been really struggling to just get along, and writing for me has been like swimming through peanut butter. When did all these problems start for us? It traced right back to the first cursing we came under when I thwarted the will of that pastor’s wife.

So, you are asking, what on earth does that have to do with the BX? Exchange is the key. John Eldredge explains in his book that Jesus was made a curse for us. He was cursed and judged in our place, so we can take all the curses and such coming against us to Him and exchange them for blessings. Sweet, huh?

As we were blearily driving home I was rejoicing over the immediate shift that resulted after we prayed the prayer when something occurred to me. Why did the curses land in the first place? I thought of Proverbs 26:2: “Like a sparrow in its flitting, like a swallow in its flying, so a curse without cause does not alight.” TONS of curses etc. had alighted upon me, my family, my relationships, my ministry … what was up with that? Then God reminded me of this: “Beloved, if our heart does not condemn us, we have confidence before God” 1 John 3:21, and this: “[We] will assure our heart before Him in whatever our heart condemns us; for God is greater than our heart …” 1 John 3:19-20. Ah ha! My heart (bless it) was up to its old tricks again!

My heart let those curses land, even the undeserved ones, because my heart agreed with them! Sadly, my heart is inclined toward wallowing around in guilt and condemnation because, let’s face it, I am far from perfect. I feel like I deserve to be judged, accused, condemned and cursed. I fail. I should do more; I should try harder; I should have known better; I should resist the cake because the cake is a lie! But I don’t resist, so basically I suck, at least in my heart’s opinion. Well God does not agree with my heart’s opinion. He is greaterthan my heart.

My problem is unbelief, not the opinions of others, not even the malicious intentional cursing of Satan worshipers or angry pastor’s wives. A simple prayer took care of that. My heart really doesn’t believe that Jesus took my place; that He exchanged His righteousness and purity; His blessings and joy for my horribleness. My heart struggles to believe that He is that good to me and that His sacrifice is enough for me. What is this compulsion we have to ADD to the cross? Maybe it’s because we are afraid to hope or trust. Most of us have experienced some pretty painful disappointments in life. And most of us are pretty disappointed with ourselves. I think our hearts are just afraid to believe in something as good as God’s BX.

After praying John’s prayer and returning home – a survivor of the Vacation from Hell – when it was quiet and I was alone, I went to the Base Exchange which is the cross. I brought my unbelief and my fear and exchanged it for His faith and confidence. I asked Him to help me believe because, quite honestly, I am often afraid.

I think I’ll hang out at the BX; never get too far away from it. You are welcome to hang out with me. It’s really nice here ❤

Blessings and Smiles,
Susan

“Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!” Mark 9:24