|So, I have avoided submitting to the dreaded colonoscopy well beyond the recommended age that the screening is supposed to take place. For my international readers, all Americans are encouraged to be screened for colon cancer when they are 50. My husband went under the gun; I mean invited this home invasion; I mean was screened against his will and at the insistence of his doctor some years back. I am happy to report that he survived the procedure and entertained his caregivers with an overflow of hilariously unrestrained friendliness while recovering from the anesthesia.|
On the other hand, I have strenuously resisted all attempts to convince me that such a screen was in my best interest. Have you noticed that telling God no is a surefire way to activate his “Oh yes you will?” Back in the day—waaay back, I am happy to report—I told God that I would never quit smoking pot; that he was wasting his time even going there.
Pot smoking was the first of my heathen bad habits to go away. It went so far away that even the thought of being in the same room with pot gives me the willies. Email me if you want the details.
Yes! God can change a mind. After telling the Lord “no thank you” to a colonoscopy; that I would take my chances with colon cancer, every single commercial on TV was about screening for colon cancer. Every Single One. Friends began sharing colon cancer stories. Colon cancer stories popped up on my FB news feed. One friend, whose mother had just been diagnosed via a colonoscopy, asked why on earth was I not getting a screening? To which I had to respond that I was scared out of my wits! I asked for prayer.
Here is what the Lord showed me. My heart believed beyond a doubt that Everyone Wants to Hurt Me. Are you aware that your heart is designed to believe absolutely without question? Once your heart settles into a belief, it is there for good unless some intervention takes place.
Blessed be the name of our God, I know how to intervene. I broke all vows to Never Forget that Everyone Wants to Hurt Me. I sent all attached evil spirits to the feet of Jesus to be judged there. And I firmly instructed my heart to stop believing what it believed. Instead, I directed it to believe this: All bad things happen because of the fall, not because everyone wants to hurt me. I then directed my heart to believe that No One Wants to Hurt Me (realizing the devil does but so what to him). A few days later, I made a doctor’s appointment and will be scheduling my lovely home invasion screen soon.
I feel no fear AT ALL.
I don’t think all of us have my heart belief, but I think many of us do. So, let’s pray together and break it.
-In Jesus’ name, I break the inner vow I took to Never Forget that Everyone Wants to Hurt Me. I break the assignments of any evil spirit attached to that vow. I send all evil spirits to the feet of Jesus to be judged.
-Heart, from now on you will stop believing that everyone wants to hurt me. Instead you will root and ground me in the grace and love of God.
-Lord, God, please heal all the hurts that have resulted because I believed in my heart that everyone wants to hurt me. Amen.
The above prayer may surface some hurts that need addressing in the presence of the Lord. I pray for you that you will be saturated in his love as you work through painful heart beliefs.
… it is good for the heart to be strengthened by grace … Hebrews 13:9
I may—or may not—report on how the colonoscopy goes 🙂
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Good news! I have finished my book (Yay!) and I will be meeting with book agents June 7 and 8. Prayer that the Lord’s will be done is very appreciated.
Prayer Strategy: Cutting Free from the Future
The need to not only heal, but to cut free from the past is recognized among prayer ministers pretty much across the board. But there is also a need to cut free from ties to the future.
These ties can be a prophetic word that you are waiting to come true. Prophetic words about the future can keep you from living today. AND they can cause you to feel distress when your present life doesn’t look anything like that word.
Fear of what the future holds or hope in the future (instead of in Christ) can pull you into anxiety. Anything that causes you to live future-focused and not present-focused is a potential weapon in the hands of the evil one.
Now, let me clarify. A wise person plans for the future. But it is not good to anxiously live there. Instead, live your best present because the Lord has your future well in hand.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
Prayer for Cutting Free from the Future
In the name of Jesus, by His blood and by His Word, I cut myself free from all ties to the future. My future belongs exclusively to the Lord. He is fully capable of managing it.
Lord God, please bring all of me into the present where I am supposed to live. Please bring to death any habits I have of living in the future. Amen.
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Written April 2017
Have you ever asked what the devil gets out of torturing people? What is the payoff for that kind of maniacal behavior? If you are like me then you have been offered a number of explanations. I’ve been told that the devil is out for revenge against God; that he is out to hurt God by hurting us; that he is angry because we replaced him as God’s chief worshipper; that he is jealous of us because God loves us so much and, one of my personal favorites, that the devil is just insane. I kind of agree with that last one. BUT I’m not convinced that any of these suggestions is what truly motivates the devil to keep up his relentless attack against humanity.
Now, some of you know me personally, and some of you don’t. For those who don’t, I am a prayer minister who has also served as pastor, youth pastor, children’s pastor, and teacher. I’m Elijah House trained and I have studied under Dr. Tom Hawkins (Restoration in Christ Ministries), Dr. Jim Wilder (Shepherd’s House), Dr. Karl Lehman (Immanuel Approach), Dr. Charles Kraft (Hearts Set Free), Chris and Jen Coursey (Thrive Today), Dr. Mark Virkler (Communion with God Ministries) as well as others. I have been praying with people for many years. In that effort, I have seen patterns consistently emerge that expose what I believe to be the real motive behind demonic attacks.
Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. 1 Peter 5:8
Someone (I’m sorry to say I don’t know who it is) described how lions capture and devour their prey: “A pride of lions will stalk and attack animals that are larger than they are — including wildebeest and water buffalo weighing thousands of pounds. When lions attack, they do so through multiple attacks from every side. Eventually, one lion gets a grip on the throat of the water buffalo and kills it by strangulation. It is a slow and painful death. The water buffalo goes down, and the lions begin eating it before it is dead.”
Doesn’t this description accurately picture what it feels like when we are under spiritual attack? Our peace and rest, confidence and contentment is hunted down from every direction and gnawed off our bones while we yet live! Our spiritual enemy doesn’t eat flesh like we chow down on a steak or like the lions consume a water buffalo. So, what exactly is our enemy consuming?
Look at John 10:10. Jesus describes our enemy as a thief who comes to steal, kill and destroy. What does the devil steal? He can’t wear our clothes, drive our cars, spend our wealth. What do we have that he wants – or perhaps – needs?
If you look at Genesis, chapter 3, which chronicles the fall of man, you will see that the devil sought out Eve and directed her to consider the forbidden tree as a source of food. As you know, she ate and so did her husband. Now look at verse 14: (Please read the verses; don’t skip over!)
The Lord God said to the serpent, “Because you have done this, cursed are you more than all cattle, and more than every beast of the field; on your belly you will go, and dust you will eat …
Look at Genesis 2:7:
Then the Lord God formed man of dust from the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living being.
And Genesis 3:18-19:
By the sweat of your face you will eat bread, till you return to the ground, because from it you were taken; for you are dust, and to dust you shall return.
And one more, Psalm 103:14, then we will talk.
For He Himself knows our frame; He is mindful that we are but dust.
When Adam and Eve fell, it became necessary for them to feed themselves through their own efforts. This is a natural consequence of living outside of God’s design. God is not being mean; it is the result of sin. When Satan fell, it became necessary for him to sustain his own life. What sustains the life of Satan and his horde? Food. Just as food sustains our life. But what kind of food does a fallen spiritual being require?
Let’s look back at Genesis 3. Satan hid himself inside a serpent, slithered into the garden, and suggested to Eve that she needed something else to eat besides the fruit of the gabillion other trees in the garden. Inherent in his temptation was the lie that she needed another source of sustenance other than what God had provided. She didn’t. God had fully provided for her. The being who lacked a food source was Satan.
Satan was desperately seeking a new source of energy, something to sustain him since he was cast down and separated from the life of God. What better option than the newly created image of God? How we must have overflowed with life when we were first created. But Satan is unable to fill himself from the sweet emotional energy that flows from love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. He cannot feed from the harmony that results when we are aligned with God’s design.
But there is another kind of energy we are capable of generating. Nervous, panicky energy that flows from painful emotions such as confusion, hatred, rage, shame, terror, jealousy and despair. Let’s take a break from the biblical for a moment and look at the science behind what I am saying.
According to researchers in the field of neurocardiology, our hearts emit a measurable electromagnetic field that is affected by the emotions we are experiencing. This electromagnetic field is energy that can be measured. When we are upset, our hearts emit dissonant or incoherent energy. Researchers are finding that a coherent or harmonious energy signal can be achieved through gratitude, appreciation and love. In other words, the emotions we experience, our state of inner being, is reflected by the energy our physical hearts produce.
Shortly after I received Christ, I had this experience that highlights what I am explaining.
My mother and I attended the wedding and reception of a high school friend of mine. We had a great time, chatting with the other guests and visiting the champagne fountain. This was my first champagne fountain and I did not know of the power therein. I visited it a few times too many, becoming pretty tipsy without realizing it. We came home, went to bed and I woke up to a vision. It was just like watching a television show. Two men entered the scene; one was very fat, the other extremely thin. Both of them were wearing tuxedos and carrying chairs. They set the chairs opposite each other across from a small table and began to talk. I knew that they had come to feast. Here is some of what they said: “You certainly made a complete fool out of yourself tonight. How embarrassing. You are an embarrassment. I can’t believe you said that! How could you act like that? You’re a disgusting, stupid girl, getting drunk like that. You call yourself a Christian? You’re a laughing stock.”
I writhed in shame while I watched and listened. This kind of self-shaming was not new to me, but I had never before seen what was happening in the spirit realm. I had always thought it was just me hating myself. Then, from off-stage, another voice calmly spoke, saying, “Greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world.” My tormentors stopped talking, looked around, and then resumed their accusations. Again, the voice spoke, calmly and firmly, quoting 1 John 4:4 over and over, “Greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world.” The two evil beings grew obviously more uncomfortable and agitated until they stood, snatched up their chairs and left! The tormenting thoughts instantly stopped.
These beings had come to feast upon the energy generated by my painful emotions. I am convinced that the enemy of humanity keeps our world in a state of angry, fearful chaos because humans in emotional turmoil supply him and his horde with the energy they need to sustain themselves. Once we are removed as an energy source, he will be reduced to the following: Those who see you will gaze at you, they will ponder over you, saying, ‘Is this the man who made the earth tremble, who shook kingdoms, who made the world like a wilderness and overthrew its cities, who did not allow his prisoners to go home?’ Isaiah 14:16-17
While we wait for the return of our Lord, let us learn how to address our wrong heart beliefs that have wounded us so deeply and produce so much painful emotional energy. Let’s us learn how to NOT be dinner.
I invite you to visit thepoolministries.org where you will find tested and effective tools and strategies for inner healing and deliverance. Stay tuned for Part Two.
Blessings and Smiles,
Written April 2016
Growing up the kid of a military man, my parents often towed me on shopping expeditions to the BX. BX stands for Base Exchange; a sort of drugstore slash convenience store not quite a grocery store place. It was called an Exchange because that’s the place you exchanged your money for their products. And, since it was a military base, you didn’t pay tax and the prices, generally, were less than off-base prices.
Keep that in mind as we go along because the idea of exchange is important.
Sam and I recently slipped away for a little vacation. Something we rarely get to do because our son, for whom we are the only caregivers, (he is intellectually challenged; feel free to pray for him and us) was away with friends. I had the flu, but was determined to go anyway, and Sam caught my flu on the way … in other words it was the Vacation from Hell even without factoring in the feral cats, one of which was in heat, that waged a determined assault on our quaint, in-the-country vacation rental.
So returning home (escaping might be more apropos) I was driving, since I was now the less ill, while Sam read to me from John Eldredge’s book, Moving Mountains. One section really spoke to us which led us to pray the prayer against curses and judgments (See page 182 of John’s book. The entire prayer is posted at ransomedheart.com and I highly recommend you pray the prayer for yourself).
What a difference that prayer made! We had no idea that we were laboring under curses, judgments, accusations, and condemnation coming at us from so many directions! Here are a few that God showed me after we prayed. Curses from a pastor’s wife enraged at me for refusing to teach doctrine that I didn’t agree with; curses from a married couple that coveted my ministry; curses from Satanic cults targeting this ministry. And that’s just the deliberate, malicious cursing! Much more falls under the heading of judgments, accusations and condemnations from random people. For years, Sam and I have been really struggling to just get along, and writing for me has been like swimming through peanut butter. When did all these problems start for us? It traced right back to the first cursing we came under when I thwarted the will of that pastor’s wife.
So, you are asking, what on earth does that have to do with the BX? Exchange is the key. John Eldredge explains in his book that Jesus was made a curse for us. He was cursed and judged in our place, so we can take all the curses and such coming against us to Him and exchange them for blessings. Sweet, huh?
As we were blearily driving home I was rejoicing over the immediate shift that resulted after we prayed the prayer when something occurred to me. Why did the curses land in the first place? I thought of Proverbs 26:2: “Like a sparrow in its flitting, like a swallow in its flying, so a curse without cause does not alight.” TONS of curses etc. had alighted upon me, my family, my relationships, my ministry … what was up with that? Then God reminded me of this: “Beloved, if our heart does not condemn us, we have confidence before God” 1 John 3:21, and this: “[We] will assure our heart before Him in whatever our heart condemns us; for God is greater than our heart …” 1 John 3:19-20. Ah ha! My heart (bless it) was up to its old tricks again!
My heart let those curses land, even the undeserved ones, because my heart agreed with them! Sadly, my heart is inclined toward wallowing around in guilt and condemnation because, let’s face it, I am far from perfect. I feel like I deserve to be judged, accused, condemned and cursed. I fail. I should do more; I should try harder; I should have known better; I should resist the cake because the cake is a lie! But I don’t resist, so basically I suck, at least in my heart’s opinion. Well God does not agree with my heart’s opinion. He is greaterthan my heart.
My problem is unbelief, not the opinions of others, not even the malicious intentional cursing of Satan worshipers or angry pastor’s wives. A simple prayer took care of that. My heart really doesn’t believe that Jesus took my place; that He exchanged His righteousness and purity; His blessings and joy for my horribleness. My heart struggles to believe that He is that good to me and that His sacrifice is enough for me. What is this compulsion we have to ADD to the cross? Maybe it’s because we are afraid to hope or trust. Most of us have experienced some pretty painful disappointments in life. And most of us are pretty disappointed with ourselves. I think our hearts are just afraid to believe in something as good as God’s BX.
After praying John’s prayer and returning home – a survivor of the Vacation from Hell – when it was quiet and I was alone, I went to the Base Exchange which is the cross. I brought my unbelief and my fear and exchanged it for His faith and confidence. I asked Him to help me believe because, quite honestly, I am often afraid.
I think I’ll hang out at the BX; never get too far away from it. You are welcome to hang out with me. It’s really nice here ❤
Blessings and Smiles,
“Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!” Mark 9:24